Finally...

I honestly intended to keep up with my blogging. It's a healthy outlet and I find it very fulfilling to write about what's happening in my life. Then life got tough. I wasn't ready to share what was really happening; what I was really struggling with. I became very depressed but I was in denial. I pretended everything was fine. It wasn't. I'm not going to go into details because other people are a part of my struggles and they don't necessarily want their part in it published.
I have been working very hard to try to clean the house, but I can only do half of what needs to be done from my chair. Doing half a job every day results in the house getting out of control after a while. So I got frustrated and added that to my struggles.
Recently I asked a dear friend who has a cleaning business to come and help me. I don't think she knows what she's in for, but she's coming tomorrow! She may run away screaming when she sees what needs to be done! It'll be nice to have company and help.
The depression is beginning to lift as things start coming together to allow me more freedom. We are looking at how I can begin to drive now that I have hand controls. I just need to get stronger so I can use the walker more and/or figure out a way to get my chair in the car. It's still frustrating as lots of public places say they are accessible, but aren't. They don't get that slapping a sticker in their window does not make it easy for me to get through a narrow entrance, up a slope or over a cement block. Being disabled is far more...I don't know...it's just harder than I ever imagined!
I know I'm a strong person. I can deal with most of it. But everyone has a breaking point. I'm trying to prevent breakage!
On the up side, I've been helping Kristi by proofreading the ridiculous number of essays she has to write for her English classes. The nerd in me loves doing this and it's part of what brought me back to my blog! She's doing so well in school and will pass these last two classes with flying colours!
She got her grad photos done and I cried when I saw them! With all the struggles, failures and delays, this kid fought through and did it! We did it!! She's graduating!! I've never been so proud in my life!! It's so exciting!